What it Took to Get Here
This is not performative. This is what it took to get here. “I didn’t build this software for clout. I built it because it was the only way I knew how to stay alive.”
This page isn’t for hype. It’s not for investors. It’s for those who need to understand why this exists, and what it cost.
🧠 Why This Page Exists
I have lived through things that most people don’t survive. I’m not sharing them for pity. I’m not looking for rescue.
I’m sharing them because silence is how abusers keep power. Because if I disappear, this stays behind. And because the only way I’ve found to fight back... is to build.
⚠️ Trigger Warning:
This section includes content about abuse, neglect, system failure, and trauma. If you're not in the headspace, skip it. But if you care about what’s underneath this software — read on.
💔 The Short Version
- Raised by organized crime, coached and manipulated from infancy.
- Abused, neglected, and forced to survive alone by 16.
- Dropped out, couch-surfed through teenage years, raising myself via stolen minutes on borrowed PCs.
- Became a father of two, primary caregiver, but constantly undermined by both their mother and my parents.
- Their mother disappeared, reappeared, vanished again. No support. No safety.
- My parents enabled abuse, bought her a car, abandoned me to eviction.
- My child was harmed, in ways I can’t put here without legal consequence.
- When I tried to protect them, the system covered it up.
- Lost my job, home, and almost my life — multiple times.
- Was hunted, starved, lied about, falsely jailed, stalked, betrayed.
- Collapsed from hunger, wrote an engine with a concussion, in motels, on sidewalks, on broken Wi-Fi.
- The courts failed me. The system failed my kids. And I’m still here. Somehow.
📣 Why I'm Still Standing
Because no one else is fighting for them. Because code is the only thing I have left that people can’t twist, discredit, or destroy. Because I will not go out quietly.
This engine, these docs, they’re more than software. They’re a record. A promise. A weapon.
⚖️ To Those In Power Who Let This Happen
- You looked the other way.
- You buried the reports.
- You protected the guilty.
- You let children suffer.
And you thought I’d disappear. But I built something louder than silence. I built a voice you can’t ignore.
🛠 What I Want
- I want justice.
- I want my kids safe.
- I want developers like me to never have to crawl through fire just to be heard.
- I want this engine to lift others out of hell, not just into production.
- I don’t want VC money if it means wearing a fake face.
- I won’t sell out.
- And I won’t shut up.
✊ Final Words
If you're reading this, thank you. You’ve read what most will ignore. You’ve seen behind the curtains of “grind culture,” “solo dev hustle,” and the polished façade.
This is the truth. This is what it took. And if you believe any of this matters, help me make noise louder than what tried to erase me.
Together, we either build the future... Or die screaming at a past that won’t let go.